Is it profitable to understand? Sometimes all the effort I put into attempting to understand something just leaves me with more questions.

Considering feelings, the sort of which lead you to contemplate talking to that girl who was selling or giving away puppies or kittens in front of Raleys. I don't think I really want to understand those kinds of feelings. And yet, here I am, torn between the desire to go back to her, and knowing that I will not.

Why not? You ask. Well, you've heard that old saying: People are always a fraid of what they don't understand. But then, if you're one of the guys, you'd say: Fear is of the devil. Which is quite true. And I know perfectly well that if anything is God's will, it will work out, if not, then it won't.

She seemed to recognize me, and she seemed familiar, which could mean a lot of things. Embarrasment among those things. If I know her through one of the churches around here and she has a boyfriend, there's embarassment. Then you'll say, why not just say hi and figure out why she seems familiar, then your mind will be put at ease.

Then I say what if she's not attached? Hmm? What if I go say hi and try to figure out why she seems familiar and we end up spending the day together and having dinner and getting into a relationship? I mean, that'd be fun and all, and a new experience for me, but I'm more concerned about what God wants for me this day. Above all else, I think He wants me to spend time with Him. And thinking about this cute, familiar looking brunette selling or giving away puppies or kittens in front of Raleys, it can only detract from my time with Jesus today.

So I'll leave it in His capable Hands. If I am indeed meant to know this girl, if it is God's will, then I will. And that's all I need to understand.